It took me several days to sort out my more I sorted it out, the more I realized that I was probably, seemed to be, or maybe really moved. I thought carefully about everything that had happened from the time I met Chu Yucheng to now. When I first met him, I was only thinking about making money. Every time I opened my eyes, a long list of heavy numbers weighed on my mind, and I didn't have any other thoughts. In addition, he was cautious at the time and therefore made many impolite attempts on me, so my initial impression of him was just a fickle rich man who could drop gold coins. Although he talked it out to me later and invited me to join his "evil-eliminating team", my original prejudice against him deepened because he stopped me from taking action against He Feifei. Later on, I almost completely put away those romantic thoughts about Chu Yucheng, and just treated him as a "tool" that could arouse He Feifei's jealousy. It was not until I launched a beautiful counterattack in He Feifei's trap set against me on the day of the team building that Uncle Xu pointed out that Chu Yucheng did this just because he was afraid that I would suffer retaliation. As for why he was afraid, Uncle Xu also gave a good reason, because he wanted to avenge his brother and also needed my help in developing the haunted house. If he really wanted to stop me from teaching He Feifei a lesson, he could have ten thousand ways to stop me. Unfortunately, I was so overwhelmed by Yao Minmin's death that I didn't even want to listen to an explanation. I guess that was what I was like at the time. If it weren't for him, I wouldn't have been able to get that one million dollar order and get rid of the heavy weight on my heart...
Through his little face, which was now dark from labor, I imagined what Chu Yucheng originally looked like. I thought of the silhouette of his chiseled face in the sun, the maturity of him standing on the auction table with glasses on and talking freely, the slight reluctance in his eyes when he called me "Senior Sister Su", the redness in his eyes because of his brother's death, and the tingling feeling I felt when he buried his head in my shoulder after getting drunk that day and his hair brushed across my face... These details are things I have experienced before, but now when I think about them carefully, they stir up ripples in my heart and make my heart pound. "Cough cough cough..." A cough brought me back to reality. I walked around to the side and saw that it was Chu Yucheng making a fire behind the small stove. There was smoke curling around the stove and he coughed repeatedly because of the smoke coming towards him. "Cancan, this firewood is a little wet. Ahem... there's a lot of smoke. Go get some dry firewood." When I went to the back of the house to get some firewood, I saw him wiping his face with his sleeve. The smoke had made his eyes tear up, and the soot mixed with his face was smeared all over his face with his sleeve, making him look like a puppy that had just rolled in the mud. I couldn't help laughing out loud. When he saw me smiling, perhaps feeling a little embarrassed, he also grinned twice, revealing a row of white teeth. His silly look made me feel a little soft. My heart started pounding again. Ahem...the spring heart that hadn't been moved for eighteen years was now moving very frequently, as if it was moving all the spring hearts that hadn't been moved before. When one is well fed and clothed, one will think about sex. This is true. Now that I've figured it out, I really do like her, so there's naturally nothing to hide. I want to confess. But now is not a good time. Of course, confessing one's feelings requires the right time, place and people.
Good timing? Late spring of 1967. No, no, no, no, at least we have to get out of the empathy. Location? No, no, no, this small mud house doesn't have any romantic atmosphere at all. Harmony? This is even more ridiculous. I am still wearing the shell of a man, an adult man, and Chu Yucheng is still just a minor. I was asked to say such words to a little kid who was not even as tall as me? It was really hard to say it. The most important thing is that I cannot try to change what has happened. Once I try to change it, I will lose control of my body. I don't have the courage to take the risk. What if this evil ghost takes away the use of my body right after I confess my feelings? Wouldn’t that mean I wouldn’t be able to do anything I want to do, or say anything I want to say? In short, let’s wait until we get out of this empathy first. …… Chu Yucheng's test results came out very quickly. As expected, he passed the test and successfully joined the flatbed car team. I had guessed this result a long time ago. After all, he was a student who basically took the first place in every exam. Needless to say, his learning ability was naturally easy for him to understand the operating principles of a few machines. The next day, after I got off work, I went out of my way to buy a lot of ingredients, using a lot of food coupons and meat coupons, and also went to the market to buy some crispy candies and biscuits. We have agreed that we must celebrate today. I had never cooked much before coming here. At home, I basically just helped my mother in the kitchen. But after coming here for more than half a year, I can now cook something to fill my stomach with limited ingredients and seasonings. Chu Yucheng, who has never done housework, is better at cooking than me because he has the memory of being a waiter for more than ten years. So at home, he is usually responsible for cooking and I am responsible for washing clothes and cleaning. It was a rare opportunity for me to cook, and luckily I didn’t mess up. When the meal was almost ready, Chu Yucheng also went home. He also brought back a middle-aged man. "Cancan, this is Captain Wang from our flat car team. I was able to pass the flat car team assessment thanks to his teaching, so I invited him to be a guest at home today." It turned out to be a small leader. I nodded, put on a smile, and prepared to welcome him to the table. Unexpectedly, he spoke first: "Aren't you the guy from Zuiyunlou?" I was a little surprised. I usually wear heavy makeup when I go on stage to act. Besides, I am still wearing coarse linen clothes, and my hands and face have become rough from working, and their appearance has changed a lot. If someone is not very familiar with me, they will not recognize me immediately when they see me for the first time. I have no memory of my previous body, so I could only smile awkwardly: "I am, may I ask who you are..." "You really are!" Captain Wang suddenly became excited. He walked up to me and looked at me carefully: "Me! I loved listening to your singing back then! Especially the song "The Female Prince Consort", which I never get tired of listening to..." I talked with him for quite a while, and Chu Yucheng had already brought the food to the table. After the food was eaten, Captain Wang's excitement subsided a lot. He drank a lot of wine, his cheeks were flushed, and even his eyes were a little blurry: "At that time, Zuiyunlou was raided, and I regretted it for a long time! But, Xiaochu, why did you live with him?" Chu Yucheng told others that he used to be a waiter at Zuiyunlou. Alcohol emboldened the coward, and in this small, patched-up house, Captain Wang strongly expressed his dissatisfaction with the current situation: "I really don't understand. Besides repairing machines, I also like to listen to operas and read books. How come now I can't listen to operas or read books? Even these have become mistakes?"
I agreed with him in my heart, but before I could say anything, Chu Yucheng stopped me from talking. He toasted Captain Wang with another glass of wine and said, "You don't dare to say that now. Come on, let's stop talking about this and drink!" Captain Wang was not distracted from the topic: "Hey! There are only three of us here, what is there to be afraid of? I think you are also a sentimental person, otherwise you wouldn't keep such a troublesome person to live with you! Now that we have said it, only God and the earth know it, you and I know it, what is there to be afraid of!" He said I was a trouble. I lowered my eyes. Indeed, I was a trouble. For Chu Yucheng, this is not the case, but for people of this era, this is absolutely beyond doubt. This suddenly reminded me of something. Chu Yucheng and I lived together because of the empathy we entered into together, but in the original story, what kind of past did an actor and a waiter have that led them to live together? The crisp sound of chopsticks tapping on the rim of the cup brought my thoughts back. Captain Wang sang along with the beat: "Top scorer in the imperial examination, wearing a red robe and a palace flower on his hat, so cool, so fresh~..." This song "The Female Prime Minister" is a rare song that I can sing. I didn't want to spoil his fun, after all, Chu Yucheng would need to work under him in the future, so I stood up, took up my stance, and sang a passage in tune with him. As soon as I started singing the first sentence, I found that my body was out of my control. Damn it! ! ! Ten thousand alpaca horses ran through my heart—— Why at this time?! (End of this chapter)