Chapter 14 Is everything getting better...?
The little fat guy sat opposite me again and stared at the rice in my bowl.
Just like yesterday, I stared at the bowl when the meatballs were in the bowl, at the chopsticks when I picked them up, and at my throat when I swallowed them.
I had eaten more than half of the bowl. I looked at the remaining Malatang in the bowl and put down my chopsticks.
Then I took my advanced mathematics into the bedroom, and sure enough, the little fat guy didn't follow me.
When I closed the bedroom door, I took a sneak peek and saw that the little fat guy was already sitting on the sofa, staring at the Malatang on the coffee table.
There are also tables and chairs in the bedroom, and I put "Advanced Mathematics" on the table again.
Opened the first page solemnly.
Then I started looking for open courses online.
It is impossible to learn by yourself. If you don’t understand something, you still need a teacher to teach you.
It was indeed different to have a teacher teach me. Listening to the teacher's detailed explanation, I suddenly felt like I had a sudden enlightenment, as if I had received divine help.
By the time I came back to my senses after swimming in the ocean of advanced mathematics, it was already 11 o'clock in the evening.
Ah, it's time to go to bed.
I still slept peacefully in the first half of the night. I had a sweet dream about getting a perfect score in the high school math exam. Just when I was enjoying the envious looks of people around me, the alarm clock rang.
It was already two o'clock in the middle of the night.
I get up, shoot the video, go to bed, and sleep.
When my consciousness fell into chaos, a clear pain came into my mind.
I opened my eyes and looked at the source of the pain, my calf, the leg in a cast.
I looked at my chubby hands and realized I was in a dream again.
Continuing with last night's dream.
"I, He Feifei, apologize here to classmate Su Cancan. I shouldn't have been fighting with my friends on the stairs, so that I accidentally knocked Su Cancan's classmate off the stairs. Take this as a lesson, and I will never do it on the stairs in the future. These dangerous things.”
I looked at the source of the sound, which was "my" deskmate.
She and the people who bumped into me on the stairs were lining up on the podium one by one, taking turns apologizing to me.
Is the truth really what they say? Was it really because of the fight that he "accidentally" knocked me down the stairs?
The surveillance camera didn't capture any physical contact between them and me, but I clearly saw the successful and cunning smile on her face as I rolled down the stairs.
No matter what the facts are, in the eyes of teachers, parents, and other onlookers, this matter is over here.
However, for "me" and my deskmate He Feifei, our affairs are obviously not over yet.
……
"Su Cancan, I'm really sorry. My parents have severely criticized me, and I also feel that what I did was not right before. I won't bully you anymore. Let's be good friends!"
My deskmate suddenly came to "me" and said, one hand already holding my arm.
I was filled with contempt. If this body wasn't under my control, I would have taught her how to be a human being with just one slap.
Unfortunately, the owner of this body didn't think so.
I could feel the beating heart in this fat body after hearing these words - enthusiasm.
My mouth responded with "ok" without my control.
But, things really seem to be getting better.
My deskmate He Feifei no longer called me by the nickname "me", no longer stuffed dirty things into my schoolbag, and no longer took my campus card and said she wanted to treat the whole class to snacks.
There was even one time when another female classmate in the class who had bullied me before put leftover chewing gum on my hair like before.
She also cut off my hair that was stained with chewing gum and glued it to the instigator’s head.
"Su Cancan will be the one protected by me, He Feifei, from now on, if you dare to bully her again!"
Just like what she said, she helped "me" get rid of the people who bullied me, and even invited me to go to the toilet after class, and occasionally brought me snacks. "Give her your campus card back. If you want to buy something, use your own card to buy it! She will be the one I, He Feifei, protect from now on!"
"My" shrinking heart began to slowly warm up.
"Do you like Luo Zhou from our class?" He Feifei leaned into my ear and asked in a low voice.
"My" heart started beating violently again.
When Yin Yin, a girl with low self-esteem when she was young, had her secret love exposed by someone, it was hard not to feel excited and nervous.
I stammered and denied it, but this was tantamount to self-defeating.
He Feifei smiled and said to me with a clear face: "What is there to deny? We are good friends, and good friends share secrets. In exchange, can I also tell you a secret?"
I blushed and nodded, my movements so subtle that I could hardly see them.
He Feifei said with excitement on her face: "Actually, I like Chu Yucheng from Class 1. He is the guy who always ranks first in the grade."
She really exchanged secrets with "me".I'm a little surprised.
"But why do you like Luo Zhou?"
I said with some embarrassment: "Actually, it was because I fell down in a physical education class. He came over to help me and told me to be careful. I think... I think he is not like other people..."
He Feifei: "You don't judge people by their appearance like others, right!"
I nodded.
He Feifei encouraged me: "Since you like it, why don't you confess it!"
I shook my head quickly: "No, no, I just... like it silently. He... didn't he confess to you before... he doesn't like me."
He Feifei said: "Oh, that was how long ago, I rejected him a long time ago. Besides, feelings are cultivated slowly. He is not a person who judges people by their appearance. Maybe he will like you?"
"I" was persuaded bit by bit, and the seeds of expectation slowly sprouted in my heart, but at the beginning I still felt inferior.
"There's nothing to be afraid of being fat. Fat people are cute. If you can't help it, just lose weight! Lose weight for what you love in your heart!"
He Feifei encouraged "me": "Just eat less."
I nodded and gave her my lunch.
"If you really like him, you will lose weight for him!"
So I gave the takeaway I ordered to the delivery man to eat...
The process of losing weight was very painful, and I felt so hungry that I almost couldn't hold on.
The burning sensation in my stomach kept stimulating my nerves, and the aroma of the food eroded my sanity bit by bit.
I'm really hungry.
But one day I accidentally met Luo Zhou in the corridor. He always ignored me but he smiled at me and said, "Wow, you have lost weight!"
The heart that was swinging between losing weight and not losing weight became firm.
Yes, keep at it, as long as I keep at it, the people I like will be able to look at me more, and people will no longer hate me, and more and more people will like me.
As long as I can hold on.
……
fool.
Haven’t you discovered that such an extreme way to lose weight has caused your body to be on the verge of collapse?
Because I didn't take in nutrients, I lost a lot of hair and looked pale.
The body's resistance becomes extremely weak, so it keeps getting sick.
Haven't you noticed that because you are hungry, you can hardly concentrate, you can't listen to the teacher's lectures in class, and your grades have plummeted?
I watched all this anxiously, but there was nothing I could do. I could only watch this doomed story come to an end step by step.
(End of this chapter)